In case you just groaned "oh no," out of the conviction that I will never finish this fuckin' thing, well, first, thanks for your solidarity. I worry about that all the time. Second, I'm pretty sure that this will haunt me to the grave if I don't complete it, so at some point punctuality will have to triumph over perfectionism... you know, when it's ready.
And while I can't give you an exact time frame, I can give the perseverant among you a completely idiotic sampling of information that might hold clues to when this will happen, like a trail of crumbs leading to the local dump. For starters, I just spent the last six months realizing three things: 1.) For having been alive for 23 years, I know an incredible amount of absolutely nothing; 2.) "Finding yourself" is a really versatile term. Apparently, I was at the bottom of a glass of vodka and in a pile of smoldering roaches this entire time. Glamorous! 3.) God really probably doesn't exist.
On top of that, I have accumulated a truly stunning number of things to drive me into a deep, dark hole of cynicism -- my reward for living in a third world country and finally taking an interest in American politics and the DSM IV, I guess -- including the realization that, my God, I spent a lot of time with incredibly misguided "New Age" ideals. (In retrospect, I guess it isn't too surprising that dolphins and people who really like "The Secret" don't hold the key to solving the world's problems.)
Ultimately, what I'm saying is that, if possible, I'd like to channel this dark, heavy malaise into finishing Fallout, so hopefully the end result will be worth the wait for you, and the immense, existential pain for me.
Cheers!
Andrew Macauley
3 comments:
well, i am glad you are still trying. i always liked the thing and always wanted more. perhaps it is like that book you read and don't want it to ever end because it is so enjoyable being in it. i do hope it gets done though. by then i will have forgotten most of it and will be able to start all over and enjoy it all over again. maybe you should start writing something else and then 101 will just keep calling to you and you will have to stop your present writing and go over to 101. like if i have housework to do i don't wanna do and a project comes up that is hard and takes focus, i immediately want to go do the housework....... something like that. anyway, it is always good to hear what you are doing instead of working on 101.... hahahaha! :] sincerely, your reader, Karen
Thanks Karen! I wish I could have the story done for you right now :)
I think the wait will be worth it though. I have been doing a lot of research about social systems, people and story telling, so I believe I have a lot to add to the original story. I hope you like what it becomes!
Andrew
Thank you, Andrew. I look forward to it. :]
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